Not much of an update, but it is better than nothing.

I have discovered a new program thanks to one of my co-workers called 'Terragen.'

What this program is is a realistic 3d landscaping tool, and I've almost fallen in love with it. Now I am sure I'll eventually get tired of it, but in the meantime, I am making these and posting them on DeviantArt.

If you would like one made as a background, I plan on making 1280x800s, 640x480s, and 1024x786s. Let me knwo via message, and I can probably make you one.

You know, when I think about it, things are pretty goof going on in my life. Leave it to Bon Jovi's new album with all it's great and inspiring songs to do that to me.

I talked to some people back home, and the owner of a store that I know is getting sued by a drunk guy because he claims to have seen narcotics in her store. Bull shit. This is the same guy who was choking my friend's little brother and hurting him.

I left a life behind where there was a lot of BAD stuff going on, where I wasn't having a good time a lot anymore. Now I am meeting a lot of new people, new friends, new aquaintences.

I've met a great girl, and we are good friends. With that, I couldn't be happier after three weeks of knowing a person.

I've met a lot of people who are like me, like what I like, do what I do. I'm not homesick really, and it came to me early that this IS my home, and it is good.

Odd, isn't it? Bad to relavation, to good. Life is alright, and I'm where I need to be.

In a surprising turn of events, Bon Jovi cheered me up. I'm doing alright. Still have those thoughts, but I am here because I have to be, and I am okay with that.

Day by day, hour by hour, step by step.

Well, at least I understand myself a bit better now.

I know why I feel like this currently.

I am happy, but am I really happy? I dunno, maybe?

I am not whole, that is the only way I can think of it. I feel empty inside.

It's a sad thought, but it is also a scarce thought. As my friend puts it, I'm lonely.

I wonder why I am the way I am at this point in time. Am I just supposed to be, am I being stupid? Just stuff like that.

Maybe I am being silly, but regardless it's an empty feeling, and maybe selfish on my part. I don't know; besides, who's reading this?